Saturday, December 24, 2011
Kyle's Dream
So....Kyle informed me tonight that a few days ago he had a dream we were having twins! I am pretty sure my heart sank a little. With all the craziness of the holiday season, I have not really had time to sit down and think too much about being pregnant. As I sit here on Christmas Eve night, I am filled with so much happiness and am super excited about our appointment on Wednesday. Then we will know if all is well thus far, and we should find out if Kyle's dream was foretelling. Whatever is in store, we know it is all in God's plan, and no matter what, at the end of each day, we are counting our blessings.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
All these emotions
Why does being pregnant make a girl so darn emotional?!?!?!?! Several times this holiday season, I have cried at movies (movies I have seen a million times like All I Want for Christmas). I find myself tearing up during certain Christmas songs. And, I find myself getting all teary eyed when being in the "moment." For example, Tuesday night, I was doing some holiday baking. I had Christmas music going in the background and could hear Kyle and Kathryn playing upstairs. Kyle was helping Kathryn with her makeup and giving her advice such as "less is more" when it comes to applying her makeup. My heart was just so full of happiness that I felt like crying. I am generally very in control of myself and emotions, so all of this is just really messing with me! Hopefully I can keep myself together until we can reveal our big news.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Feeling Guilty
With the upcoming holidays, I know it is going to be hard pulling off "not drinking." And, I have already lied to one of my best friends. I had to tell her I wasn't pregnant this month. I know she will understand, but it is so hard to not be honest with her. UGH! I keep telling myself, just 5 more weeks and we will be ready to make an announcement. We need to be just a little bit further along. Until then, Kailey and anyone else, I am sorry for all the lies already told and for the upcoming lies as we get through these next several weeks. Please still love me when this is all said and done.
Friday, December 16, 2011
More Good News
Dr. Hill's office just called, and my numbers from my second round of blood work look great. My Beta HGC is at 1335. On Tuesday it was at 565, so this increase is a great sign! We will go for an ultrasound on Wednesday, December 28th. After the ultrasound, we will see Dr. Hill. I will be exactly 6 weeks pregnant on Christmas Day. That's not very far along, so we will not be sharing any news that day. We will likely wait until February to make any sort of announcement. Until then, we are praying that all goes according to His plan.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
A short visit to NFC
Yesterday, I had a short visit to Nashville Fertility to do some blood work. Dr. Hill wanted to get some baseline data. He wants comparative data too, so I will go back tomorrow for more blood work. While having blood drawn is not my favorite thing to do, I am keeping my eye on the prize. I am praying for my numbers to progress as they should during this process. I am keeping my fingers crossed and my faith in God.
Monday, December 12, 2011
A Little History
After some time passed, Kyle and I finally opened up to many people about our problems with having more children. At our age, it is natural for people to ask, "When are you having another one?" So, here's the story...
We knew we always wanted a family, there was no doubt about that. So, Kyle and I first started to "try" in the Spring of 2006. At this point we had been married for almost three years, so we felt we were ready. We conceived in September 2006. We had our first miscarriage the next month. We were totally devastated! I was somewhere around 7 weeks. We waited the recommended 3 months before we started trying again. Finally, in November of 2007, we conceived Kathryn. While we were so excited, we were also scared due to our previous miscarriage. None the less, this pregnancy was perfect! I felt great the entire time and had an easy labor and delivery.
Since everything went so well with Kathryn, we assumed our first miscarriage was a fluke, and that all was well to try for baby number 2. We were wrong. We started to try for baby 2 in the summer of 2009. We knew we wanted Kathryn and her sibling to be close together in age, so we began trying right before her 1st birthday. It took us a few months, but we conceived in November 2009 and had a miscarriage on New Year's Day of 2010...not the way we wanted to start out the new year. This miscarriage resulted in me having to go to the ER and having an emergency D & C (this is another long, scary story...doubt I will blog about this one). None the less, after this miscarriage, we waited the recommended 3 months before trying again. Then, we ended up pregnant in June which resulted in a July miscarriage with a scheduled D & C. At this point we were feeling very down, discouraged, sad, and the list goes on. While we were not trying to conceived, we ended up pregnant in late August. We thought since we weren't trying, that maybe this was the one to work out. No, wrong again, we had a miscarriage in October. At this point, my OB/GYN, who is wonderful might I add, referred us to Nashville Fertility because after lots of testing, nothing came back irregular. Which honestly is even more frustrating. When things don't work out, I want to know why. I guess this is a natural reaction.
So, our new (and costly) journey began at Nashville Fertility in November of 2010. I underwent tons of testing and had surgery to remove a mass from my uterus in December. The results of the testing showed my blood clots a little on the fast side. At this point, we had 3 miscarriages in one year, and I was ready for a break. Honestly, I felt like I never wanted to be pregnant again. 2010 was such an emotional roller coaster! Kyle and I had several trips planned for 2011, so we decided to take a break from trying. During this break, we went to Vegas, Cabo, and Playa del Carmen. We also did some long weekend trips to Tunica, Athens, Memphis, and Chicago. Yes, we decided to spoil ourselves just a little. None the less, in August of 2011, we decided to start trying again. I felt like my body was back to normal, and I felt like emotionally I was ready to try again. I told Kyle that this would be it. If we got pregnant and it worked out, great for us! If we got pregnant and it didn't work out, that I was done.
So, we started up with monthly appointments at Nashville Fertility. During these appointments, I would have an ultrasound to see if I was ovulating and the quality of everything going on inside there. I would also take Clomid prior to this appointment. After each ultrasound, I would get a shot in my stomach. The shot would help to make me ovulate. Then, we would have timed intercourse. Two weeks later I would take a pregnancy test, and each month it was "Not Pregnant" so I would begin this process all over again.
In November, we decided to take the next step. We planned to do IUI, which is basically taking sperm and injecting it directly into the uterus. During my November appointment (which was on Black Friday), I went in for my ultrasound and was told my numbers looked a little low for IUI. Basically, they want the uterus wall to be at a 6, and mine was below that. The nurse said there was no reason to pay for IUI unless the conditions were optimal. And, I totally agreed with her on that. We decided for December, I would go on a different medication, since after taking Clomid for several months can cause the low numbers, and then see how everything looked and go from there.
My scheduled date to take a pregnancy test was last Friday. That morning I got up and sure enough, it said "Pregnant." So, the rest of this blog will document this pregnancy and hopefully all the good things to come!
We knew we always wanted a family, there was no doubt about that. So, Kyle and I first started to "try" in the Spring of 2006. At this point we had been married for almost three years, so we felt we were ready. We conceived in September 2006. We had our first miscarriage the next month. We were totally devastated! I was somewhere around 7 weeks. We waited the recommended 3 months before we started trying again. Finally, in November of 2007, we conceived Kathryn. While we were so excited, we were also scared due to our previous miscarriage. None the less, this pregnancy was perfect! I felt great the entire time and had an easy labor and delivery.
Since everything went so well with Kathryn, we assumed our first miscarriage was a fluke, and that all was well to try for baby number 2. We were wrong. We started to try for baby 2 in the summer of 2009. We knew we wanted Kathryn and her sibling to be close together in age, so we began trying right before her 1st birthday. It took us a few months, but we conceived in November 2009 and had a miscarriage on New Year's Day of 2010...not the way we wanted to start out the new year. This miscarriage resulted in me having to go to the ER and having an emergency D & C (this is another long, scary story...doubt I will blog about this one). None the less, after this miscarriage, we waited the recommended 3 months before trying again. Then, we ended up pregnant in June which resulted in a July miscarriage with a scheduled D & C. At this point we were feeling very down, discouraged, sad, and the list goes on. While we were not trying to conceived, we ended up pregnant in late August. We thought since we weren't trying, that maybe this was the one to work out. No, wrong again, we had a miscarriage in October. At this point, my OB/GYN, who is wonderful might I add, referred us to Nashville Fertility because after lots of testing, nothing came back irregular. Which honestly is even more frustrating. When things don't work out, I want to know why. I guess this is a natural reaction.
So, our new (and costly) journey began at Nashville Fertility in November of 2010. I underwent tons of testing and had surgery to remove a mass from my uterus in December. The results of the testing showed my blood clots a little on the fast side. At this point, we had 3 miscarriages in one year, and I was ready for a break. Honestly, I felt like I never wanted to be pregnant again. 2010 was such an emotional roller coaster! Kyle and I had several trips planned for 2011, so we decided to take a break from trying. During this break, we went to Vegas, Cabo, and Playa del Carmen. We also did some long weekend trips to Tunica, Athens, Memphis, and Chicago. Yes, we decided to spoil ourselves just a little. None the less, in August of 2011, we decided to start trying again. I felt like my body was back to normal, and I felt like emotionally I was ready to try again. I told Kyle that this would be it. If we got pregnant and it worked out, great for us! If we got pregnant and it didn't work out, that I was done.
So, we started up with monthly appointments at Nashville Fertility. During these appointments, I would have an ultrasound to see if I was ovulating and the quality of everything going on inside there. I would also take Clomid prior to this appointment. After each ultrasound, I would get a shot in my stomach. The shot would help to make me ovulate. Then, we would have timed intercourse. Two weeks later I would take a pregnancy test, and each month it was "Not Pregnant" so I would begin this process all over again.
In November, we decided to take the next step. We planned to do IUI, which is basically taking sperm and injecting it directly into the uterus. During my November appointment (which was on Black Friday), I went in for my ultrasound and was told my numbers looked a little low for IUI. Basically, they want the uterus wall to be at a 6, and mine was below that. The nurse said there was no reason to pay for IUI unless the conditions were optimal. And, I totally agreed with her on that. We decided for December, I would go on a different medication, since after taking Clomid for several months can cause the low numbers, and then see how everything looked and go from there.
My scheduled date to take a pregnancy test was last Friday. That morning I got up and sure enough, it said "Pregnant." So, the rest of this blog will document this pregnancy and hopefully all the good things to come!
Friday, December 9, 2011
Big Morning News
This morning was my day to take a pregnancy test. Just as I expected, it was positive. I kind of thought I was pregnant because my breasts have been so darn tender. They usually are before beginning my cycle, but this month, the tenderness started earlier and was way more intense. I am so excited but so nervous all at the same time. Kyle and I have not had the best of luck with staying pregnant, so I am apprehensive to allow myself to get too excited at this point. None the less, we are PREGNANT!!!!!
I titled this blog, A Final Try At This Thing Called Pregnancy because this is it for Team Luther. If we carry and have a baby, this will be our last one. If things don't work out this pregnancy, we are not trying anymore and Kathryn will be an only child. Our history with miscarriages is extensive and getting to this point has been emotional and expensive...I will post about that soon.
In the meantime, I am going to relish in the fact that Kyle and I have a big secret.
I titled this blog, A Final Try At This Thing Called Pregnancy because this is it for Team Luther. If we carry and have a baby, this will be our last one. If things don't work out this pregnancy, we are not trying anymore and Kathryn will be an only child. Our history with miscarriages is extensive and getting to this point has been emotional and expensive...I will post about that soon.
In the meantime, I am going to relish in the fact that Kyle and I have a big secret.
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